March 3rd, 2006

Subject: hello Time: 02:59 am

hey all, its probly been a year since ive updated this. ummmm, just wanted to let you know, if you're interested, i have a blog www.megalynnrose.blogspot.com cheers! -meaghan

comments: Leave a comment

June 30th, 2005

Subject: newness Time: 03:28 am

hey, i know i dont ever use this account. but in case any of you are still interested, i have a myspace account that i update regularly go to www.myspace.com/megalinrose tty xxooo

comments: Leave a comment

April 5th, 2005

Subject: here today gone tomorow Time: 09:14 am

so, i finally decided i'd update my live journal. most of you didn't know i still had one, did you? well, it seems like i begin every journal with...'its been so long since i updated.' but--this entry is an end to that begining and im begining again somewhere else, i suppose, a new starting point. or...point along the way... i went to seattle this weekend, flew up on my two days off. i looked at, like, eight apartments, and finally settled on this adorable little yellow house in Beacon Hill. its from 1912 and has been fully remodeled. to make a long story short i signed a lease and am moving in a few weeks. god, i cannot wait. ive been trying to make it work, in boise, just temporarily, but it feels like i have no room to grow. i can't breathe, live, love. i dont know, its just too fucking conservative here and all the radical queer ppl are hiding... and i guess they're just too hard to find. cant wait to leave and i dont want to be in transition anymore i found this awesome book while i was up there called "days of war, nights of love" in by far the most radical bookstore i've ever been to (left bank books). i highly recommend it. its written by a collective called crimethink and talks about the fucked up ideologies of capitolism and our "democratic society". anyone who considers themself a freethinker n is sick of our bullshit consumer driven society should check it out. ...anyway, i miss you mills girls. please keep in touch (if you're goin to seattle for the summer tell me! i'll be there ;) nappyrose@excite.com) mucho love to all ya'll

comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment

December 13th, 2004

Subject: so long sunny california Time: 04:09 pm Current Mood: aggravated

I'm here, in Moscow, Idaho. Farmer town filled with bush-lovin, conservative, whiteys. yup, neat, huh? its good to be with family though. So, the stress doesn't end...Meaghan is a silly forgetfull girl...i left my floppy disc with all of my papers in Oakland, yet i still have to turn in two papers for one class (about 16 pages) and the disc is gone! thank god i had hard copies, but i took me a few hours to re-type both papers, ugh. Today, i finally turned them in, thinking that was it, i could finally relax. noooo, thats never the case with me. I email them to my professor. THEN i get an email from my english prof telling me SHE missed the incomplete deadline (which i was planning on filing) like a week ago, and now she doesn't know what to do. i say, FUCK MILLS. its so frustrating to have no one helping you with problems that aren't even your fault, and still coming out of the first semester owing the school $5,000 out of my own pocket. its rediculous. GRR, so now i might just fail the class. Other then the never ending mills bullshit...i'm doin okay. at least i came out of the school with some amazing new friends that will last a lifetime. cheesy, i know, but there are some pretty fuckin cool ppl at mills. the administration just sucks. i'm gonna go take care of this mess, i'll try to update soon. i miss y'all. ;) keep in touch

comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment

December 9th, 2004

Current Music: Portishead Time: 09:08 am Current Mood: distressed

bla, im exhausted and cranky. finals suck, moving is worse.... make it all go away

comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment

November 30th, 2004

Current Music: modest mouse Time: 02:47 am Current Mood: stressed

deleriously writing a paper at three a.m. im wired on coffee and chai tea this is my last week of classes at Mills and it all happened so fast something funny just happened to me, maybe im just tired but... i was writing a sentence about how our government is ruled by christianity and Word automatically capitalized christianity. so i typed in every other religion (muslim, jewish, etc...) without capitolizing mind you, and it just said it was spelled wrong. it didn't even acknowlege them as words! haha, proved my point. thank you microsoft anyway, its all coming down to it this week, finals, hectic schedules, soon goodbyes... once again im missing people i haven't left yet and missing the people i will soon be with again. always wanting something else, never looking at whats in front of me until its being taken away. i have this habit of living life wishing for something better, then when i look back on it i realize how good i had it. its annoying. well, im gonna go back to writing about porn now... sleep for 3 hours, g'night

comments: Leave a comment

November 23rd, 2004

Time: 06:19 pm

goin to L.A.!!!

comments: Leave a comment

November 21st, 2004

Current Music: staring at the sea -the cure Subject: nevers... Time: 08:36 pm Current Mood: confused

never know whats going on in life? not knowing whats gonna happen to you? where you'll be in a given amount of time? time, thats falling on you so fast like a piano about to crash im lost and confused my friend ellie's visiting me from boise this week, reminding me of home. reminding me of all the other confused kids who have no idea what they're doing with life trying not to fall into that ... trying hard, still have mono and am missing everyone in my life, even the ones i still have here especially you dont want to leave you. never want to leave you never's cluttering my head...

comments: Leave a comment

November 16th, 2004

Current Music: mia doi todd Subject: passing time Time: 11:03 pm Current Mood: lethargic

So, I realize i haven't been using this journal too often lately, life has been way too hectic. but im going to start trying ;) ive been avoiding the news, too furious with this country to listen to what its doing to the world... its gone waaaay too far. i know keeping my ears covered won't help a thing, but for now, i have to do it for myself. soon enough i'll listen again, and fight back... FUCK THE BULLSHIT Everything wrong that could possibly happen to me...happened my first semester at school. let me fill you in, for those of you who already know, please excuse my complaining...(he he) my wallet was stolen (plus $500 from my debit card) got mono, ten day fever, still not better had to withdraw from one of my classes, asshole professor wasn't understanding am completely broke and now i can't afford to live on campus, can't afford to move IN anywhere (first mo + deposit = no money). so, im taking a leave of absence, yes, after my first semester at Mills. and George W. Bush has been 'elected' dictator of this country. -the worst, by far, occurrence of the season for people everywhere- Its all relative though, i realize my problems are nothing in relation to everything else going on right now. really behind in school, but im still finding ways to have fun. something is always happening. mills is a school full of drama, some good, some bad. just trying to make it...

comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment

September 19th, 2004

Subject: vodka and bowling Time: 03:30 pm

walking to the bus stop to take the 57 home, proudly wearing my battle scars from the night before... what happened was...my friend liz and i were merrily on our way to a party in the city (sf), we had decided to take a cab, big mistake. the ride, just to get across the bay bridge, ended up costing about $50 and all she had was her debit card. SO the cabbie and his passenger, yes a passenger (some creepy guy talking on his cell phone about vigourous sex that lasted three days...it was all too strange) decided they'd let us run to an ATM and not charge. We stopped at about 5 different ATMs and it just wasnt working out too well. The cab was parked on the side of the road, waiting for us, when all of a sudden it peels out, so of course, we book it. Hauling ass down the street my shoes almost went flying off, we dodge into some bar, and the bartender lets us out the back alley. lost in san francisco looking for the bart station...hiding from every cab that drives by. crazy night. made it to the bowling alley. vodka and cranberry juice. good night

comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment

September 17th, 2004

Time: 11:04 am

the little things are what im looking for right now...they're getting me by played hooky yesterday, went to the movies, had a good time. everything, or should i say, everyone seems to be falling apart i missed a lot on my one day vacation from Mills, but i wont get into that ...its so hard when you're so far away from someone you love and you can't take care of them, and life is shitty "All this talk of getting old It's getting me down my love Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown This time I'm comin' down The drugs don't work They just make you worse But I know I'll see your face again" ben harper all my love to you ellie, and taraneh, jessi n josh, sarah grindstaff, kerrie taylor, colleen, erin, alyssa, and everyone else having a hard time right now. tomorrow will be new who knows where we'll end up but it will be better : ) love you all

comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment

September 12th, 2004

Subject: fuzzy memories Time: 10:17 am

ever have one of those nights? where the next morning is only questions, and sudden realizations of a time spent, and you cant laugh, and you cant leave, b/c this is all you've got? you can say sorry all you want but it just wont be heard

comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment